"Remember When I Was So Strange And Likeable"

ever feel like you're losing yourself?

The Great Gatsby Complex

i'm having this weird "gatsby complex"
you see, i miss someone
and i listen to these songs and that person shows up unannounced in my head
i know it's all "a rock on a fairy's wing"
but i can't seem to shake it

and yeah, i know daisy abandons gatsby
and i know he dies in the end
still thinking about her (sorry for the spoilers if you've never read it)

but i can't seem to shake this feeling :[

I want that humble fever

let's be fevers

dont' worry
i know you don't get me

now i just need you to admit it

oh i feel as dumb as a rock
so i'll turn myself into sand
'cause sand lasts
sand hurts
it's indestructible

Lincoln is my Homeslice

 

aw man

i need to learn how to make these

credit: http://www.ne.jp/asahi/fickle/flickers/noguchi/menu.htm

Mmm

outside
sprinkles of rain plaster little pink petals to the earth
while i curl up and pour sweet sounds into my ears

this is how i want it to stay

some of those sweet sounds

Resisting nap time

it's hard to get to work when your constantly listening to sweet-chic-freak, sipping hot water, and sitting in the sunlight

some of that sweet chic freak

ಠ_ಠ

i suddenly feel very lame :[

Yes, Sir

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People:

10. i hope you get hit by a bus
9. i hope you get hit by a bus
8. i hope you get hit by a bus
7. i hope you get hit by a bus
6. you kind of don't really have your own personality
5. grow a backbone
4. i hope you get hit by a semi-truck filled with acid
3. stop saying that. i say that
2. i hope you get hit by a bus
1. i miss you. let's make waffles

Nine things about myself:

9. i love sweet things
8. i love cute things
7. i constantly have to be doing something with my hands
6. i'm terrified of the future
5. i appreciate the silence
4. i'm super indecisive
3. i deeply value my free time
2. i wish i were thick skinned and witty
1. a part of my brain seems to be stuck on "permanently frightened"

Eight ways to win my heart:

8. random acts of kindness
7. consideration
6. love to laugh
5. loyalty
4. sincerity
3. have an open mind
2. nerdy
1. vulnerability

Seven things that cross my mind often:

7. i hope you get hit by a bus
6. i feel like my silence is making things awkward
5. i really don't know what to say
4. shut up
3. are they mad at me?
2. you're ridiculous
1. i wonder what they go home to every night

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

6. brush my teeth
5. grab a sketchbook or my notepad
4. slide some headphones on and listen to an album
3. sit on my bed
2. crack open a book
1. turn off the lights

Five people who mean a lot to me (friends):

5. loser_dingo
4. ape escape
3. haggler
2. peanut-butter cookies
1. magical cupcake

Four things I’m wearing right now:

4. plaid shorts
3. t-shirt
2. zooyork hoodie
1. undies

Three songs you listen to often:

3. marching bands of manhattan
2. lua
1. rome

Two things you wanna do before you die:

2. visit a different country
1. take a train ride

One Confession:

1. i'm a quitter (i think i give up too easily)

GIVE ME MY FUCKING LAVENDER TEA

nothing tastes as good anymore
i have to force fake laughter out 
i feel like nothing sounds as clear as it did before
the air is constantly stale


i should just sleep
just sleep all day