It seems

that i am always
a little bit dizzy

aw man i feel stooopid

dear blogspot,

i will be leaving you for a while
for my tumblr
dont be mad now
i'll be back soon
and i'll probably delete some o dos dumb posts when i get back

lub,
me

Errbody's Gettin' Hyped

lol. my mondays

swallow up your thoughts.

they won't let you be alone

Dubbed With The

honor of a broken jaw

All In A Day's Work

• was kidnapped by radio dj's 
• walked around downtown with friends while wearing light up tiaras
• sang karaoke in a chocolate shop
• road in a limo
• made shrinky dinks and had wine with some cool people
• finnished off the day watching The Big Bang Theory and eating pasta with same cool people

it was peculiarly lovely

Birds and Flies

▲ i need to stop some bad habits
▲ i keep seeing things that aren't there
▲ i pretend i don't care but i secretly dwell on things
▲ i keep finding bruises on my body

i just wanna

sit here and listen to the killers all day
and watch the wind shake the branches outside my window

Soooo Tired...

oh, i know
i should buy an amp

I am a Nerd

listening to Zelda songs, on the computer, 2 in the morning

gerudo valley
midna's lament
the outset island theme
sofa king gooood

Louder Now

.: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4 --- "and Ash Tree Lane, bathed in afternoon light."

.:x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? --- the shades covering the window

.:x What is the last thing you watched on TV? --- jeopardy

.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: --- 8:46

.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? --- 8:46 :]

.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? --- just the music from my earphones

.: x When did you last step outside? What were you doing? --- this afternoon. calming down

.: x Before you started this survey, what did you look at? --- uh facebook

.: x What are you wearing? --- shorts, a shirt, tights

.: x Did you dream last night? --- probably

.: x When did you last laugh? --- earlier today, probably around my little brothers

.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? --- nothing

.: x Seen anything weird lately? --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXd6u9o6dYY&ob=av2e

.: x What do you think of this quiz? --- it's ok

.: x What is the last film you saw? --- Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World

.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? --- a phone, shoes, vegan strawberry marshmallows

.: x Tell me something about you that I don't know: --- i have a book on my lap

.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? ---"ari land" haha. i dont feel like naming what i'd change but if you know me, then you should know a few

.: x Do you like to dance? --- only to good music

.: x George Bush: --- had a son who was once a president but before that a cheerleader

.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? --- i don't really want to have kids but i like the name Lily

.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? --- Augusten

.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? --- absolootely

Would it?

if i bought this shirt for the design rather than for the band would that make me a turd?
http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=80&startValue=1&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=19384551&parentid=W_APP_TEES_GRAPHIC&sortProperties=+subCategoryPosition,+product.marketingPriority&navCount=35&navAction=poppushpush&color=&pushId=W_APP_TEES_GRAPHIC&popId=W_TOPS&prepushId=&selectedProductSize=
i mean, i really adore the design
and i took a listen to the music
and they're pretty cool
it's just that i've never heard of them before i saw the shirt and i don't want people to assume i listen to them

Sick Sick Sick

oh yesterday
a few friends and i had a picnic then dinner
delicious sandwiches made of basil, tomatoes, and fresh mozzarella for lunch
then for dinner clam chowder, sweet potato fries, and cheesecake
yum :]
too bad i only was able to enjoy the sandwiches
'cause of my increasingly tortuous migraine, neck ache, and nausea
which sent me upstairs to throw up in my friend's bathroom
twice
before i could enjoy anything else
baw i wish i didnt miss all that yummy food :[

If your life had a face, i would punch it in the balls

i constantly want to 

RAGE RAGE DESTROY
angry much?

Black Hole Heart

I am The Great Void

Relentless

mmm

i'd really like some scrambled eggs right now

WIP

(full view, if you please)

i don't know where i'm going with this

Currently

hippiefest tonight

have you heard?

where's north from here

(full view, s'il vous plaît)

made from embroidery thread, rope, and some metallic shiny things i found

barf barf barf barf

i made chocolate chip cookies today
wooo yaaay yuuuum yeeeaaahh
i also made another necklace
wooo yaaay yeah...

then my dad came home
and started complaining
and so i thought to myself
i want to rip his face off
and i also want a veggie burger
i've been thinking thoughts like that quite often lately
well, except for the latter
moody much?

also, i had a bad dream
it was revolting and disturbing
and as hard as i try
i can't get rid of it
now i'm scared

Mordecai

with those two

a fur coat

and a wooden finger

things would be grand

6:18

well, maybe not the wooden finger...

goshdarn you

effing imaginary spiders, crawling in the corners of my eyes
stop tricking me :[

Ghost Boy Blythe

and Handsome Benni Blue Nose

um those are their american names

full view please

you are sound itself and you are flight

You Are The Blood

A- Age: count the rings

B- Band you are listening to right now: neutral milk hotel

C- 1st Crush: Sufjan Stevens. sweet voice makes my heart palpitate

D- Dessert: cheesecake

E- Easiest person to talk to: Loser-dingo

F- Flavor of ice cream: cherry chocolate chip or strawberry cheesecake

G- Gummy worms or gummy bear?: i enjoy them equally

H- Hair color: black

I- Instrument(s): ukulele, piano, accordion

J- Juice: cranberry, pomegranate

K- Kids: by mgmt

L- Longest car ride ever: five hour car ride to an indian reservation

M- Movie(s): Imaginary Heroes, MirrorMask, The Road, The Royal Tenenbaums

N- Nickname(s): Ari, Ninja, Google

O- One wish: to succeed

P- Phobia(s): bugs, deep dark water, alligators and crocodiles, the future, other stuff

Q- Quote: "wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure"

R- Reason(s) to smile: my doggie, soft sunshine, good music, cute things

S- Song you sang last: king of carrot flowers 1

T- Time you woke up today: around noon

U- Unknown fact about me: i do like it when you call me darling

V- Vice: my anger

W- Worst habit: pulling out my hair

X- How many X-rays you've had: i dont really keep track

Y- Your least favorite person as of right now: that person

Z- Zodiac sign: Capricorn

U.P. + Indian Reservation + Pow-wow

it was pretty rad :]

Golly

Healing/Easy Listening/Soul

i saw MGMT last night

it was magical

Aw Shucks

lol

i enjoy this

very much

Letters To No One

Dear Sweetheart,
i miss you
i never really disliked you
even if i should have
i actually admired you
i felt you were different
but then my admiration turned to jealousy
and you left
it was probably for the best
but... i still miss you...
even though i probably shouldn't

Eight,

stay away from me

you think that all i do is take

well, the feeling is mutual

at least i'm trying to better myself

sometimes i wish i had never met you

Dear Babe,
you're gone now
sometimes i hope to see you again
but
i just really need to accept
that you're gone

Dear Eighteen,
there's something about you
that i find safe
i want to tell you
but i'm afraid i might be wrong

Like a Hermiiiiiit

today would be a lovely day for me to start breaking my antisocial/hermit habits... 

or i could just finish this drawing and have another cup of tea
Like A Hermit

well, honestly...

i'm feeling scared and lonely
but i'll smile and say "i'm good" anyway

Oh you hipster couples

isn't it cute when you see hipster couples going grocery shopping for cigarettes and hairspray?

d'awwwww

no.

(i'm kind of ashamed to even have this picture on my blog)

Blood loss

my nose randomly started bleeding during the ride to church today
i haven't had a nose bleed in like forever lol
it made the day interesting, i guess

I AM AWKWARD
moving on...

now i'm eating yogurt and feeling drowsy
but i have chores to do
:[
i want to take a nap

Grate Job, Me

oh, karma

you never do miss a beat, do you?

haha ohhh my

well, i'll learn 

eventually, you know?
like when my arm gets ripped off by a shark or something

oh golly

i just ate four bowls of cereal
uuuugghhh
bad idea

Cornelius The Awkward

(full view, if you wouldn't mind)

i like playing casiokids and passion pit on repeat

all day

oh, and also, 

drugs

jk

about the drugs

yeah, i'm a downer

let this be our little secret

title: sleepyhead

WIP

(click image to enlarge)

My Eyes Are Puffy. I feel Like Shit

Day 04 — Your favorite television program

um i dont really watch much tv anymore but i always did enjoy flapjack

Augusten Burroughs

Day 03 — Your favorite book

Day 02 — Your favorite movie

imaginary heroes

 

"Touch him again and I'm scalping you! I will fucking cut your face off!"

Day 01 — Whatever tickles your fancy

The Grin

i over steeped my tea

(full view, if you'd please)

drawn in charcoal. noise added in photoshop

We Can

just sit back. just sit back
just sit back and relax
just sit back. just sit back
just sit back and relapse again

can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
sit back. relax
sit back. relapse again
can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
just sit back. just sit back 

We keep coming back. to this meaning that i lack

i've got nothing for you
should i leave

theres nothing to look forward to anymore
only things to fear

Wear Your Real Eyes

tunnelvision

Something makes my chest hurt

 i didnt get much sleep last night

i didnt make it into REM

which makes me sad

now i feel dumb and dysfunctional

We're the lonesome

(full view, if you'd like)

"Tired out, not a miracle in days
Deciders for the lonely
Whispering tears
You try out for nothing then you drop dead
Not a miracle in years
Leisure for the lonely
Whispering unnecessary unless you’re in

Die and succeed
I say it out loud but you just don’t care
Farewell, til you know me well
Farewell, til you know me well"


i'm trying

I'M GOING TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE GOSH DAMN JUGULAR

i can't find my mother flippin' gosh damn phone

they ate my raisinets

i should have signed up for that painting class

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

gorramit

fuck shit balls

where the fuck am i going with my art 

Do Want

Hurhur

best buy

ohhh my
i am, once again, filled with flatteries

i was using the tablet in the store
and an employee told me that i was "quite the artist"
teehee
he kept coming around and asking me questions about my techniques and saying nice things
and before i left, he asked me if i would like to save my drawing so he could use it as a sample
to show other customers about the capabilities of the tablet

this kind of makes me feel better about my art
or lack there of

"Remember When I Was So Strange And Likeable"

ever feel like you're losing yourself?

The Great Gatsby Complex

i'm having this weird "gatsby complex"
you see, i miss someone
and i listen to these songs and that person shows up unannounced in my head
i know it's all "a rock on a fairy's wing"
but i can't seem to shake it

and yeah, i know daisy abandons gatsby
and i know he dies in the end
still thinking about her (sorry for the spoilers if you've never read it)

but i can't seem to shake this feeling :[

I want that humble fever

let's be fevers

dont' worry
i know you don't get me

now i just need you to admit it

oh i feel as dumb as a rock
so i'll turn myself into sand
'cause sand lasts
sand hurts
it's indestructible

Lincoln is my Homeslice

 

aw man

i need to learn how to make these

credit: http://www.ne.jp/asahi/fickle/flickers/noguchi/menu.htm

Mmm

outside
sprinkles of rain plaster little pink petals to the earth
while i curl up and pour sweet sounds into my ears

this is how i want it to stay

some of those sweet sounds

Resisting nap time

it's hard to get to work when your constantly listening to sweet-chic-freak, sipping hot water, and sitting in the sunlight

some of that sweet chic freak

ಠ_ಠ

i suddenly feel very lame :[

Yes, Sir

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People:

10. i hope you get hit by a bus
9. i hope you get hit by a bus
8. i hope you get hit by a bus
7. i hope you get hit by a bus
6. you kind of don't really have your own personality
5. grow a backbone
4. i hope you get hit by a semi-truck filled with acid
3. stop saying that. i say that
2. i hope you get hit by a bus
1. i miss you. let's make waffles

Nine things about myself:

9. i love sweet things
8. i love cute things
7. i constantly have to be doing something with my hands
6. i'm terrified of the future
5. i appreciate the silence
4. i'm super indecisive
3. i deeply value my free time
2. i wish i were thick skinned and witty
1. a part of my brain seems to be stuck on "permanently frightened"

Eight ways to win my heart:

8. random acts of kindness
7. consideration
6. love to laugh
5. loyalty
4. sincerity
3. have an open mind
2. nerdy
1. vulnerability

Seven things that cross my mind often:

7. i hope you get hit by a bus
6. i feel like my silence is making things awkward
5. i really don't know what to say
4. shut up
3. are they mad at me?
2. you're ridiculous
1. i wonder what they go home to every night

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

6. brush my teeth
5. grab a sketchbook or my notepad
4. slide some headphones on and listen to an album
3. sit on my bed
2. crack open a book
1. turn off the lights

Five people who mean a lot to me (friends):

5. loser_dingo
4. ape escape
3. haggler
2. peanut-butter cookies
1. magical cupcake

Four things I’m wearing right now:

4. plaid shorts
3. t-shirt
2. zooyork hoodie
1. undies

Three songs you listen to often:

3. marching bands of manhattan
2. lua
1. rome

Two things you wanna do before you die:

2. visit a different country
1. take a train ride

One Confession:

1. i'm a quitter (i think i give up too easily)

GIVE ME MY FUCKING LAVENDER TEA

nothing tastes as good anymore
i have to force fake laughter out 
i feel like nothing sounds as clear as it did before
the air is constantly stale


i should just sleep
just sleep all day

Miss Noir, Mr. Blue, And Drifloon Too

Must

have...

neednow

cake...

this makes me want to bake

Guh uh ha hu ha hee (vanity explosion)

someone just told me that my eyebrows were beautiful
ha ha
and just last night my mom was ragging on me about my eyebrows
so while i was lying in bed, i was thinking about what i would say
if someone commented on them
i could defend with a sarcastic/empty/maybe joking
"yeah, i was going for a 'mona lisa' look..."

guh huh
but now i'm flattered

Broken Down Grievers

 

of a different kind

tummy hurts

i just finished off a bag of chocolates

i am terrified to go to class
three hours long
no
no
no
i don't have any more chocolate

Watashi Wa Hansamu Desu Ka

muh manstache

muh morning man hair

oh devendra, we could be twins

Devy wa hansamu desu

Teeheetummytums

it's 1am

i just made two bento boxes for my little brothers

they didn't ask me to
i've never made them before
i guess i just felt like it
you know?
for funzies and whatnot

...

i didn't even have much food to work with

no fresh vegetables

well, except for onions, i suppose

but i still made them

yup...

mmhm...
oh right, and i'm supposed to wake up early tomorrow

Just The Mug I'm Looking For

yes, please

edit*
wait, whoa whoa now

Ask me. Alright?

you don't know everything
you really don't understand
stop pretending you do

a psychic
don't you ever assume
you know anything about me

It's mew! (jk i'm not sure what that is)

 

teehee gummy mango candies,

merriweather post pavillion,

and aloe vera juice.

IT'S ALL GOOD :D

They Say

 

shhh. rest your head 

What Are You Going To Win?

i feel that i've lost the will

i don't know if
i should just accept it

Saccharin Sheen

haze like a maze

get lost

"I Want to Walk Around With You"

It Sure is Pretty Outside

all this snow makes me hungry for cupcakes
vanilla cupcakes
with vanilla frosting
in white wrappers
and a cherry?

albino cupcakes?

i have found zem

Uh Guh

did anyone else see the commercial for delta's new touch activated faucet?
i fell in love

These Are Kind of Really Adorable

 

sigh.

i need to go to the mall

GOOD GOLLY MAN

 

do you guys remember these?

i do

they were awesome

and you could eat part of the wrapper